Self Portraits at Remai
Drove up to Canada today to go to Prince Albert National Park. Saw two bears and one moose. Didn’t take any pictures.
Imagine you are a stand up comedian. You just finished your set and you are about to head to the bar for something to drink. On your way to the bar, 1 of three scenarios take place.
You step off stage and make your way through the crowd. Halfway to the bar, a group of five people walk up to you to tell you have great your set was. They are trying to engage with you and are fans, and it is strongly implied they just want a little bit of your time to tell you how awesome you are. However, you really don’t want anything to do with them, you’ve heard compliments before and kinda brush them off. You continue to work your way to the bar, alone, to get your drink.
Same scene as scenario 1. This time you make it to the bar and place an order. One person who is sitting there sipping their drink looks over at you. They tell you that they didn’t think you were funny at all, and that they didn’t understand why everyone was laughing at your jokes. You immediately start to get defensive, turn to face the stranger, and proceed to argue. It’s not the first time someone didn’t agree with your set, but you’ll be damn sure you won’t leave without telling them that they “Don’t have a sense of humor”, “You don’t care what they think”, and a dozen other reasons why you are awesome and they are not. You leave the bar and the rest of your night is ruined thinking about why one person didn’t like you.
You step off stage and make your way through the crowd. Halfway to the bar, a group of five people walk up to you to tell you have great your set was. They are trying to engage with you and are fans, and it is strongly implied they just want a little bit of your time to tell you how awesome you are. Even tho you’ve heard compliments before, you’ve never met or talked to this group of people before. Happy that you were able to connect with anyone after the set, let alone five, you proceed in small talk. You then mention you would really like to get a drink and ask if they want to come get a drink with you. All six of you proceed to the bar and place orders. One person who is sitting there sipping their drink looks over at your group and sees you standing there. they tell you that they didn’t think you were funny at all, and that they didn’t understand why everyone was laughing at your jokes. Before you can even start to get defensive, the people in your group turn to the stranger and tell them they think you are awesome, that they don’t want any problems, and they are just there to hang out with the comedian. The stranger realizes there are 6 of you and one of them, realizes they can’t get under your skin like they would have wanted, and turns around to finish the drink alone. You then look at the group of five people with you, say thank you, and continue have a great time. A couple minutes later more people in the show start coming up to tell you how much they think you are awesome. You leave the bar in such a great mood realizing that one person didn’t get you riled up, and that you were thankful to have interacted with people who simply wanted to share some praise.
These scenarios happen to us everyday. The occupation and mediums constantly change.
From playing a show, doing an open mic, singing karaoke, doing a book reading, and even posting your photos and art on social media.
No matter what you share with the world, there will always be a different response than what you expect. You just have to choose your reaction.
Finally got all the pieces for my astronaut look.
Me saying “it always does” solidifies that it “always will.”
Received this art this week. Tangibility of what I’m trying to do
The whole day was spent without any PDA.
I don’t know why, it just happened that way.
Maybe its because we had just met IRL,
It’s amazing what can come from a little URL.
An Ocean, Zim, Rick and Morty plus a campfire,
How long was I going to wait for something to transpire?
You needed some UV, of the artificial variety,
So we hopped in a Lyft and made it a priority.
We headed to a place “where people take aim”
but the store left us with a feeling of disdain.
As we headed back to count the final hours together,
I thought to myself “another moment like this might not come up in forever”
We called another Lyft to go back from whence we came,
Determined to let this cab ride be different, and not the same.
I put my hand on her knee, I was trying to be smooth.
She put her hand on top of mine, in one sweeping move.
I didn’t look at her face but I used my peripheral.
And what I saw from my corners was anything but dismal.
A smile on her face as wide as her cheeks,
I don’t think I’ve yet seen her face show so much teeth.
In that one simple moment I knew shouldn’t have waited,
I could have had this moment sooner, but I wasn’t complain’n
It was a good weekend, which unfortunately had to end.
My biggest take away? My hand and your grin.
my first superboy levitation photo
went out to Medicine Lake, MT to do my first outdoor nude shoot. there were a lot of mosquitoes and I had to cover myself in OFF. but overall I had fun.
Practicing Indoor lighting
This month I am going to concentrate on my Superboy Chronicles. Seeing if I can nail down a 5 second animation. also need to do more podcast interviews .
Today I am officially out of debt. I paid off the last of my IRS debt. (I owed 5500$)
So it’s really freeing.
My contract was supposed to be up in July (is what the recruiter said to me) but now it looks like they might be extending it to December.
So it looks like I have some options.
Be done in July and tell them I didn’t agree to a year and a half contract only a year. And then go live in a city/county I’ve never been. Using savings to pay month to month for a couple of months until I decide to get another contract.
Still quit in July and van life it back in seattle for the month of August because I still haven’t spent a month of August there exploring.
Stick it out until December and save a lot more money. That way come 2020 I can basically live wherever I want for 4 or 5 months off savings until I decide to go back to work. This option will probably include going somewhere overseas like Sweden or London or Costa Rica.
Finish the job in December and immediately start another contract in who knows where city and state.
Quit the railroad altogether in July because I still don’t like it. And use the money saved to van life somewhere else and go back to washing dishes or something and exploring taking pictures again, till I get tired of that, and then look for another “real” job.
Being out here is really draining on me.
Not only is it boring, it’s boring. But I mean it did/does serve its purpose.
In the 9months I’ve been here I’ve:
Paid off 6k in credit card debt
Paid off 5k to the IRS
Bought a 4K computer
Bout a 1500$ camera
Bought a 1k drone
Bought a 4K van
Bought a new Superman suit for 1500$
Spent lord knows how much in camera and computer accessories. Including light kits and so on and so forth.
Bought the Superboy suit
Paid almost 1k in commissions to artist.
Hit my goal weight of 200lbs
Bought a PlayStation
Spent about 1200$ in FB ads
But also in the 9 months I’ve been here.
Haven’t had sex.
Haven’t gone out to meet anyone to try to have sex because I am putting all my money towards buying/paying off stuff.
Only been out to eat maybe 6 times.
I Have zero social life here.
Literally have to pull creative stuff out my ass because I couldn’t go shoot anywhere once it got cold.
Now that it’s spring it’s windy as crap and I can’t fly my drone out anywhere around here till the weather still gets nicer.
I have been sitting at my computer so much for 9 months I actually developed a pilonidal cyst that just recently went away.
My only friend here is my coworker who is about 20 years older than me and might quit to go back to where he’s from.
The new Superman suit I bought I’ve had for almost two months but can’t wear it because I can’t put the trim on myself while I wear it, and I don’t trust anyone in this town to do it, and I’m not gonna buy a manikin that “fits my body type” because I don’t have room for that. So I’m just gonna have to wait.
I have so many ideas to make videos with a female but because I don’t go out to meet anyone, I’m seriously considering buying a female manikin and using that to let your imagination fill in the face and emotions I want to convey.
Today my new camera came in the mail. I bought a Canon 6D mark ii. My previous camera is a 6D. I primarily bought it because it has video autofocus, which is great. now I won’t have to keep manually adjusting the focal points and guess while I try to take video of myself. The down side of it is, my lens is really loud. it won’t matter when I take video to put music to. but when I vlog its gonna be noticeable. Soooo I have to look into stm lens
Ill be in Seattle next week for ECCC and I cannot wait. Although I know when I get back to sidney i’m going to have major withdrawals from city life.